life in words

you know how people had childhood dreams to be an astronaut, a princess, a magician, a doctor, a...

Sat, 02 Jun 2012 04:50:00 -0400

you know how people had childhood dreams to be an astronaut, a princess, a magician, a doctor, a police officer, the list goes on and on…..

mine was to be a scientist, in the category better known as astronomy. ever since i started my passion for watching the moon, but it kept getting smaller and smaller and i didn’t like it, so i set out on my journey to become an astronomer, but i was a kid so the only thing i really did was draw pictures of the moon and the galaxy. till one day in grade 7 i actually tried to study astronomy and then learned that if i actually wanted the moon bigger, a bunch of things would be affected, like one was waves would get so much larger, as you could see if you witnessed the supermoon, in which case i did not.. sadly, you’d think though!!

anyways, i think having a childhood dream job is great for growing up because it gives yourself character. i know things about the moon and the galaxy, etc that if someone asked me what i wanted to be a while back i could tell them things about astronomy. a small part of me still wants to study astronomy. ;)

sometimes i lean against a wall and watch the city go by and wonder where they’re going, how...

Sat, 02 Jun 2012 04:27:00 -0400

sometimes i lean against a wall and watch the city go by and wonder where they’re going, how their day was and what they’re feeling. if you ever have the time to do this, unlike me who has all the time in the world, you should just lean against a wall, or maybe sit on a bus stop bench. nobody will judge you for not getting on the bug or sitting there, or maybe you could do this while waiting for a bus, but either way of doing this, just rest yourself on or against something and watch people go by. you’ll find that it seems like people are walking just to fill up the sidewalk space, but truthfully you know that everyone has a place to go. a destination to go to. it’s inspiring if you are starting to lose your love for people or something of the kind. people are wonderful.

love is a weird thing and i say this from personal experience. and by love i mean love,...

Sat, 02 Jun 2012 04:05:23 -0400

love is a weird thing and i say this from personal experience. and by love i mean love, not necessarily being loved back or not being in love, it could go either way really but for me it is being in love but not being loved back. i bet a lot of people can relate to this as which most people refer to as ‘crushes’. it’s cute but sometimes insanely frustrating.

love is when you feel intense feelings for someone. it’s not always positive, sometimes people get so negative with their thoughts because their crush likes someone else, or maybe they’ve been feeling love for this person for way too long and they’re so tired of keeping it in but they just can’t because they’re humans and afraid of rejection.

i think love is amazing. it really is, and i think that people who are in love should keep doing what they’re doing. i’m not going to say ‘hey, you there who’s in love. go tell them you fancy them, now!” because not everybodys ready and you’ll find that you’ll have a crush and never tell them, ever. which is me.

i had a crush for 2 years and never said one thing. we hung out once and i don’t think i ever acually liked him. i’m not saying this because i regret liking him but more because i was a kid and i was naive (which is why i think little children dating is a bit foolish, but hey! if its working for ya, keep doing what you’re doing!) but with him, i liked the idea of him but not him. i have troubles with that. i like somebody because i think the idea of them is lovely and i usually end up hating myself for it, not necessarily regretting it because very ‘mistake’ is a learning experience.

sometimes i think back and think about when i didn’t want to graduate. writing this now, i...

Thu, 31 May 2012 03:46:16 -0400

sometimes i think back and think about when i didn’t want to graduate. writing this now, i still think it’s weird. going through the whole prom process, the whole year-booking and talking about ways to keep in contact but never talking again till the high-school reunion, that’s probably how it’ll be. right now, i cant tell if i’m going to be the one who’s avoiding the calls or the one who’s being left on the other line hanging, but i just hope wherever i am, i’m doing okay.

i always believed in the whole ”wherever you end up, that’s where you end up.” kind of thing, but maybe in future years i’ll think back to myself, ”wow, that was dorky and corny.” but maybe i don’t. maybe i haven’t changed at all in about 3-4 years time and i’m still debating where to live, still thinking out my life or not at all and just going with the flow.

i love people. i love the way they think, they way they interpret things, i love the way they love,...

Thu, 31 May 2012 03:32:01 -0400

i love people. i love the way they think, they way they interpret things, i love the way they love, i love the way their tears fall down their cheeks, i love the smile on their face, i love everything about people. they are just so lovely and i don’t know why anyone would think different.

not everything in life makes sense, i’ll tell you this now. but this is only temporary, like...

Thu, 31 May 2012 03:28:13 -0400

not everything in life makes sense, i’ll tell you this now. but this is only temporary, like see, a year ago you must’ve thought ‘i wonder why _____ ___ ____…’ and now i bet you can answer it. of course thats if you still remember it, but you will if it really matters. but if it doesn’t, don’t stress because a year from now you won’t even remember it.

everything happens for a reason, but that’s not always the reason why something good or bad...

Thu, 31 May 2012 03:22:24 -0400

everything happens for a reason, but that’s not always the reason why something good or bad happened. the big event isn’t always the thing that caused the chain of reaction leading up to the bigger event, but more down the line. your choices reflect on your future. who knows, your choices now could cause something to happen because maybe the event that happened for a reason already happened.

sometimes i wonder if everyone were in space and could breathe up there, would things be like it is...

Thu, 31 May 2012 03:17:00 -0400

sometimes i wonder if everyone were in space and could breathe up there, would things be like it is now or would it be peaceful, at last? there would be nothing to disturb the peace but other people, but is that whats destroying us? so many people blame it on the items in society but its the people who are the do’ers in this life.

and then, nobody would depend on anything for life but other people, like it used to be. no more ‘my life depends on music’ or ‘my life depends on looking good’ etc, it would be ‘my life depends on the feelings of other people and i.’ and everything would be peaceful and fine. not that it’s realistic, its just something that will make you think.

my life is indescribable, and i know that is normal but sometimes i feel like it isn’t. life...

Thu, 31 May 2012 03:13:42 -0400

my life is indescribable, and i know that is normal but sometimes i feel like it isn’t. life is just one big ball of everything weird. life is weird.

i can’t wait for the day when someone says ‘you should be proud of yourself’ and...

Thu, 31 May 2012 03:01:26 -0400

i can’t wait for the day when someone says ‘you should be proud of yourself’ and actually feel it.

People always will be unoriginal. People are a collective piece of artwork of everyone they’ve...

Thu, 31 May 2012 02:58:57 -0400

People always will be unoriginal. People are a collective piece of artwork of everyone they’ve ever known, as Chuck Palahniuk once said. but that doesn’t make people bad, it makes them alive. people are always trying to fit in, imitate someone else, and some quotes i’ve read say thats the highest form of flattery. by imitating someone, are we trying to flatter them or be like them because we admire them we want to be them, exactly? we are humans and we are the most complicated species to figure out. we always want one thing then another.

i’ve always cared for people who i barely knew and i never knew why. it’s just natural...

Thu, 31 May 2012 02:48:53 -0400

i’ve always cared for people who i barely knew and i never knew why. it’s just natural for me, but when i do, people think i’m intoxicated or an alien because ‘how could i care about someone i barely know’ but its because i have a heart and i use it unlike other people, not that i’m judging anyone because everyone has their own freedom and can use their life how they want.

i used to have a friend who every night i would lay with them on the grass and look at the stars and...

Thu, 31 May 2012 02:43:00 -0400

i used to have a friend who every night i would lay with them on the grass and look at the stars and the clouds rolling by. it was beautiful and so unusual. it started by them laying down looking up and so i laid down with them and we just watched, not caring of the world and only focusing on the beauty of it all. i think more people need to drop everything and just do.

i think its beautiful how people can change their whole outlook or feeling on life with one thought....

Thu, 31 May 2012 02:41:22 -0400

i think its beautiful how people can change their whole outlook or feeling on life with one thought. for example, i used to be obsessed with christofer drew and i would feel so graceful and so carefree. i liked being alone, meditating, drinking water out of jugs with a peace sign on it and watching the sun go up and watching it go down. if you have a beautiful feeling on life, never let it go because once its gone its hard to get back.

i think people fall in love too fast. a lot of people get offended when others say this but it is...

Thu, 31 May 2012 02:36:52 -0400

i think people fall in love too fast. a lot of people get offended when others say this but it is the truth. some people fall in love because a man/woman bumped into you on the train and ever since you haven’t stopped thinking about them, or maybe you’ve known then for a day, maybe a month, maybe a year. either way it shouldn’t matter, as long as you love them. but a lot of people don’t know the meaning of love and they’re saddened by it, but i think the people who are all too familiar with love are just as sad.

all my life i constantly tried to get away from people and now that i have, completely, i just want...

Thu, 31 May 2012 02:32:25 -0400

all my life i constantly tried to get away from people and now that i have, completely, i just want to go back to the start. maybe start it all over again, but it’s harder than that. people move on, life goes on without you.

i like watching people go by and thinking about their life, not summarizing it because i don’t...

Thu, 31 May 2012 02:30:42 -0400

i like watching people go by and thinking about their life, not summarizing it because i don’t think anyone can summarize their life no matter how hard they tried. you cant describe your life. like if you smoked you cant say ‘my life is just me smoking’ because there’s more to it than that, there always is. everyone has a story, but i just wonder if people are keeping back their story, like hiding it, or just haven’t found the person that will really sit down and listen.

most mornings i wake up trying to balance the bad and the good in my life. it doesnt always work...

Thu, 31 May 2012 02:26:04 -0400

most mornings i wake up trying to balance the bad and the good in my life. it doesnt always work out.

sometimes i wonder why people care. and by that i mean completely and utterly care, to their hearts...

Thu, 31 May 2012 02:24:00 -0400

sometimes i wonder why people care. and by that i mean completely and utterly care, to their hearts contempt. a lot of people don’t do this and i understand but then again i don’t because its not like people chose to think or do like that. for me, i had a dream about someone and woke up thinking ‘oh my god i would give my life for this person.’ and then i asked myself why in later times and my answer was just because they are. they are them and thats all that matters but people say that its the personality that makes a person beautiful but i think everyone is beautiful and that you can actually find beauty in everyone if you looked but if you were looking for someones beauty you wouldnt want to find it or would you because if you cant see it on spot thats not normal or would it be?

if i knew i couldnt fuck things up i wouldn’t talk to anyone because everything that comes out...

Thu, 31 May 2012 02:18:39 -0400

if i knew i couldnt fuck things up i wouldn’t talk to anyone because everything that comes out of my mouth is bullshit and fake words that get me into worse things than i think and in the end it doesnt even matter because people say that a real friend would stay but no matter how much i love you if you were horrible, although hard, i would have to leave and i dont get why some people havent left me yet because im the one who eventually gets replaced always so why do i still exist? why are people keeping me alive?